Road ahead / Onumdeki yol
Road ahead / Onumdeki yol (Turkce altta) I had my last chemo this Tuesday. I cannot express the intensity of joy I am still feeling. Right now I think what can measure up to this can only be my first clean scan. Soon I will be feeling like a normal person again, I think I forgot how it feels. Even if the side effects I experienced were probably moderate, still it was always there: this feeling of a chemical, sort of grinding your bones and wearing you out. I am glad it is all past now. The oncologist said I should get an MRI, so next Monday will determine how chemo has affected the tumor. I hope I will not get scanxiety, I am trying not to think about it since there is nothing I can do. After that, they will schedule me for an operation, but I guess the MRI will be a decision tool on the scale of the operation. We will see, I feel prepared for all options but I guess there is no such preparation to prevent the sad feelings that may overflow once I actually hear the doctor say them.