In an alternate universe with cancer / Kanserli Paralel Evrende

Thyroid After the surgery, pathology results revealed a very tiny cancerous piece in my thyroid lymphs. Well, you can imagine my first reaction to that. I was very frustrated, I was caught off guard for this, I had thought the decision to remove them was just a precaution for the future. But it was already there! I couldn't believe I had done this much harm to myself, and was just on the edge from blaming myself. Then I learned that it is a very common type and not even really considered as cancer, nothing bad will happen. I feel much better now. I think it was just another bump on the road, and I should be more welcoming to the bumps and don't let them bring me down. They kept telling me that cancer is a process, I know but still I can't keep myself from waiting for the deadlines and checking tick boxes: chemo-done, surgery-done, another cancer-wait,what???? So I guess even cancer couldn't change my personality, I am still easily put off by things that I cannot con

Surgery So the chemo ended. Then there was the MRI. It turned out the tumor is almost undetectable. The surgeon's exam yielded the same, there was no apparent tumor. I was ecstatic with joy. They told me that it is not yet clear if they would have to do a total mastectomy. During the surgery they would send tissues to the lab and see if they need to remove all of the breast or only part of it. I was ok with both options as long as I get rid of it in the end. In fact I spent my days prior to the surgery thinking about this, testing myself, preparing myself to lose one of my breasts after I wake up. I didn't even think of the severity of the operation itself. Maybe it was better that way, I could do nothing by worrying. Since they had found a nodule in my thyroid during my scans for breast cancer, they decided to remove my thyroid as well in the same operation. So I was there on the table, the only pain so far was due to my veins being too tough and they had to try over and